Socializing the Introvert: What June taught me, what July is proving to be in five simple phrases.

Indecision is a time waster

Postponing a decision doesn’t make it go away.

 It just adds to you unnecessary options that rattle your mind and you cannot think of what it was you wanted to do. A decision will eventually have to be made, and unless you make it you won’t know whether it was a good one or a bad one. You might find out you have shot yourself in the foot, bitten more than you can chew but having regrets is worse than the bad decision. Just limp away on your good foot and find the good bits in the new decision. That’s my new motto.

I have a mean streak

And oh God I really need to get rid of it. Something about treating others the way they treat me. People are kind and thoughtful. I am not always kind and thoughtful and I can be quite mean. Sometimes I think maybe it’s coz I feel it may not be appreciated, or taken the wrong way. But that is a cliché excuse.

Take your brain to work

I once got some writing work from a client who really didn’t know what they wanted. It was hard trying to interpret their request and I spent quite a sum on the job. It didn’t end well and I felt cheated and insulted by a claim they made. Said I hide behind computers instead of meeting with my clients.

It was true; but truth is, such face to face meetings scare me. I am never sure if I will be able to express myself clearly, afraid they will discover I don’t have all the answers, and mostly rely on search engines and my smart friends.

Meetings mean, I got to dress up, arrange my hair, and arrange my thoughts.

But I read an article here (bad assery) that said something about not letting your big ideas go unseen. And so I tried, and spoke up an idea I had, and the idea pleased those that heard it and pretty soon I had to go decent shirt shopping coz I had a bunch of other meetings scheduled. So I am gonna let people take a peek of my brain once in a while.

God is in control

I was gonna write supernatural forces are in control . But that is not always positive so,,, But it is the only way I can explain why I haven’t burnt down my house, got shot in the head, been exiled. Coz really sometimes I’m not sure how I get by. I am 25% crazy and 70% insane and most times my brain is over there while it’s supposed to be here looking out for me.

in the wild without a single care in the world

I have walked right into danger wearing nothing but flip flops, I’ve been missed by speeding cars, and a highway bus yesterday. And onetime I found myself in a deserted 10 plus acre compound, chatting up two men who were cleaning out a very deep swimming pool. I wanted to look at the old colonial house I saw while taking a walk, alone.

I’m quite attached to friends and family

June, May and Ciss

Ironic as it may sound considering my mean streak, free spirit, leave me alone behavior, I’m quite a sucker when dealing with the above set of people. With family, it’s usually the many sleepless nights when I feel I am not doing as much as I need to be doing for them, like calling oftener, and even though we don’t agree in everything, they are the best.

With friends it’s not wanting to part when we meet, yet knowing how much we value the spaces in between, and how often I get amazed by how much they get me when, they text me instead of calling when it’s something important coz they know I need to think about it before I can talk it over, And how we all got the same service provider so we can make two hour phone calls, and skype so we can see how the other is looking. The little notes, notebooks, hats and music they keep in supply.