John 13:34,35
I woke up feeling grateful this morning.
The last four days I've had people stay with me in shifts.
I sank last week, I was angry.
But the rescue team arrived.
Each with a band aid for each part of my heart that was aching.
I recovered my sleep.
Someone came and cleaned my kitchen
Another cooked for me
Another brought me apples
I woke up surrounded by bread.
Others washed my floor
A little girl sat with me in sign language meetings
Then an avalanche of mixed company arrived with bags and hugs
And I felt like I'm gonna be okay.
Not 100% but I fully know that my creator is aware of my wanderings.
I am not an insignificant organism roaming the earth unattended.
' with someone loyal you are loyal.'
This evening I am happy.
When you are grateful, good things keep coming.
This morning I received a text from my mother's opposite neighbour. She comforted me and said she wanted to send me cash. She sent the exact amount I needed to pay off my November rent.
Then I got another call.
'You don't know me but I was your mum's friend. I owed her some cash, Now that I have your number I will send you. Keep strong.'
And she did.
'With God everything is possible.'
I know my life is not a waste of space. I know Jehovah cares about me.
I will tell my mother the things people did for her.
That she had not been a waste of space as well.
Her good deeds follow her.
I have no reason to be angry,
or be too anxious, or try to find comfort where it's non existent.
Now that I realise real love is not forced.
It is easy and comfortable. And it knows exactly what needs to be done.
I woke up feeling grateful this morning.
The last four days I've had people stay with me in shifts.
I sank last week, I was angry.
But the rescue team arrived.
Each with a band aid for each part of my heart that was aching.
I recovered my sleep.
Someone came and cleaned my kitchen
Another cooked for me
Another brought me apples
I woke up surrounded by bread.
Others washed my floor
A little girl sat with me in sign language meetings
Then an avalanche of mixed company arrived with bags and hugs
And I felt like I'm gonna be okay.
Not 100% but I fully know that my creator is aware of my wanderings.
I am not an insignificant organism roaming the earth unattended.
' with someone loyal you are loyal.'
This evening I am happy.
When you are grateful, good things keep coming.
This morning I received a text from my mother's opposite neighbour. She comforted me and said she wanted to send me cash. She sent the exact amount I needed to pay off my November rent.
Then I got another call.
'You don't know me but I was your mum's friend. I owed her some cash, Now that I have your number I will send you. Keep strong.'
And she did.
'With God everything is possible.'
I know my life is not a waste of space. I know Jehovah cares about me.
I will tell my mother the things people did for her.
That she had not been a waste of space as well.
Her good deeds follow her.
I have no reason to be angry,
or be too anxious, or try to find comfort where it's non existent.
Now that I realise real love is not forced.
It is easy and comfortable. And it knows exactly what needs to be done.
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