I’ve always been an outlier, not a recluse, but never
following the crowd either
And for that many times I become an object of curiosity. Not
because I am trying hard to stand out but because I didn’t do what everyone else
in the room wanted to do.
As a child, I got bored easily by games children played and
instead would read or just, dig a trench in the ground and cover it with sticks
or whatever.
Weird
Strange
Different
Hard headed
Are terms that have been used to describe me.
I never cared much for popular opinion, I didn’t watch
popular TV programmes or enjoy popular music. Instead I talked to the quiet people in the room, read Surgeon’s Diary and
Walked inside the maize plantation to see what little animals I may meet.
The different path is not that smooth. Whenever I am new in
a place, people will be asking who is she, what tribe is she, is she rich, is
she married, is she dating an old mzee?
Because people will always try to find out where to place
you.
They start with your clothes
Then your accent
Then how much money you are willing to throw about.
And then maybe they will listen to you tell them who you
are.
I dress for comfort, and ease of movement, and I’m glad I
have an eye for what suits me.
I’m grateful to BG Ngandu Girls and British sitcoms for
cleaning out my accent. Though I didn’t really have a distinct one to start
with, within the country.
And I am glad that even though I know how to have a good
time, money has never been the focus in my life.
Sometimes I have it, sometimes I don’t but whatever stage I am
at financially, I still get round.
2020 has been my pivotal year, the year that I kept telling
myself I would be mature enough to make decisions. It was something I decided
in 2011 and each year I tell myself, it’s coming.
I am not so eager now for it, my mother is not here to see
it so whatever, but I am sure about one thing, I won’t change much.
But I will be less tolerant
More Resilient
Less talkative
More meditative
Less Cowardly
More courageous
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