Indecision
is a time waster
Postponing
a decision doesn’t make it go away.
It just adds to you unnecessary
options that rattle your mind and you cannot think of what it was
you wanted to do. A decision will eventually have to be made, and
unless you make it you won’t know whether it was a good one or a
bad one. You might find out you have shot yourself in the foot,
bitten more than you can chew but having regrets is worse than the
bad decision. Just limp away on your good foot and find the good
bits in the new decision. That’s my new motto.
I
have a mean streak
And
oh God I really need to get rid of it. Something about treating
others the way they treat me. People are kind and thoughtful. I am
not always kind and thoughtful and I can be quite mean. Sometimes I
think maybe it’s coz I feel it may not be appreciated, or taken the
wrong way. But that is a cliché excuse.
Take
your brain to work
I
once got some writing work from a client who really didn’t know
what they wanted. It was hard trying to interpret their request and I
spent quite a sum on the job. It didn’t end well and I felt cheated
and insulted by a claim they made. Said I hide behind computers
instead of meeting with my clients.
It
was true; but truth is, such face to face meetings scare me. I am
never sure if I will be able to express myself clearly, afraid they
will discover I don’t have all the answers, and mostly rely on
search engines and my smart friends.
Meetings
mean, I got to dress up, arrange my hair, and arrange my thoughts.
But
I read an article here (bad assery) that said
something about not letting your big ideas go unseen. And so I tried,
and spoke up an idea I had, and the idea pleased those that heard it
and pretty soon I had to go decent shirt shopping coz I had a bunch
of other meetings scheduled. So I am gonna let people take a peek of
my brain once in a while.
God
is in control
I
was gonna write supernatural forces are in control . But that is not
always positive so,,, But it is the only way I can explain why I
haven’t burnt down my house, got shot in the head, been exiled. Coz
really sometimes I’m not sure how I get by.
I am 25% crazy and 70% insane and most times my brain is over there
while it’s supposed to be here looking out for me.
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| in the wild without a single care in the world |
I have walked right into danger wearing nothing but flip flops, I’ve
been missed by speeding cars, and a highway bus yesterday. And
onetime I found myself in a deserted 10 plus acre compound, chatting
up two men who were cleaning out a very deep swimming pool. I wanted
to look at the old colonial house I saw while taking a walk, alone.
I’m
quite attached to friends and family
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| June, May and Ciss |
Ironic
as it may sound considering my mean streak, free spirit, leave me
alone behavior, I’m quite a sucker when dealing with the above set
of people. With family, it’s usually the many sleepless nights when
I feel I am not doing as much as I need to be doing for them, like
calling oftener, and even though we don’t agree in everything, they
are the best.
With
friends it’s not wanting to part when we meet, yet knowing how much
we value the spaces in between, and how often I get amazed by how
much they get me when, they text me instead of calling when it’s
something important coz they know I need to think about it before I
can talk it over, And how we all got the same service provider so we
can make two hour phone calls, and skype so we can see how the other
is looking. The little notes, notebooks, hats and music they keep in
supply.
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