I have been thinking, talking and even reading about peace and today I thought about how, despite not always feeling very peaceful, I have managed to somehow find peace within myself.
Not that everything is alright, I still have noise in various parts of my life, but when I come to my house, take off my shoes then brew a fresh cup of cardamom tea, I feel really good. I almost feel like everything is alright with the world. And perhaps it is, at least in the universe that I frequent.
My friend asked me how I was feeling and how it felt to have moved to a different place, away from the bright shining lights. I told her my nervous system has calmed down. And the minute I said it out loud, it's liek I confirmed it, that yes, the wheels are turning a little less faster than before.
It's not to say that I haven't spent some nights wondering what's gnna be the end of this? Or what will be the outcome of this other big risk I have taken? There has been uncertainities, but through them all I have managed to calm myself down and do the next thing that needs to be done.
And maybe that's what it is, peace might be; the energy one has to be able to get up and participate in life.
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